I am thankful for...

Wow, was that you, Tasha?! 

I was just playing around with some time-space elements, inventing and stuff, when I thought I heard a familiar voice say, "Holy @#$%, Universe! Thank you so much for this day and every second of it! Exactly as it is, exactly as I am..." 

Almost dropped my chocolate into my peanut butter. You're welcome, Tasha, you are so welcome - 

    

The Universe

I have realized that my life is not perfect but I am truly thankful for everything that I have.

...yesterday I was able to celebrate Thanksgiving with one of my closest friends and her family.  I have so much to be thankful for but I would like to give a special thanks to them for welcoming us warmly.

I finally had a moment to sit and think.  While I sat, I thought about everything that I have been blessed with.  Ten years ago, God gave me a beautiful little girl and I could not be more grateful. Some days I find myself sitting and staring at her.  When she catches me she asks, "mommy are you okay?"  I always nod my head and tell her, “yes baby."  She is a typical ten year old.  She drives me crazy with her inability to keep her room clean but I could not ask for a better child.  Allannah keeps me smiling.  She never ceases to amaze me; she is smart, super cute and has a very kind heart. You know children are not lucky to have us as their parents, parents are lucky to have their children. With that being said ...I am thankful to be Allannahs mom.

As for me, my time is running short in the DMV (D.C, Maryland & Virginia) area.  It has been real but it is time for me to go!  On a lighter note, I try to set goals everywhere I go. To some it might sound corny but this is how I was able to find a balance in my life.  I came to this duty station hoping to finish my Bachelor’s Degree, get promoted and up my GT score for more options in the Military. Well I accomplished all three.  This may not be a big deal to most but it was a huge deal for me.  

I am not going to sit up here and lie, these past four years has been HELL!  It seemed like EVERY single time I had something important to do the devil would put his plan in place.  This baffles me, why me?? What did I do to deserve any of this?  I found myself wanting to give up when things got tough.  I do reflect back and wonder how I managed to push through it.  God was and always has looked out for me.  I now know that this was all a test and both of us made sure that I would not fail. The older generation does say that what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger.  Well "ain't" that the truth.  These tests did not kill me but everything that has happened has definitely made me stronger.

I quoted a message from the Universe at the beginning of my entry.  Again, what am I thankful for?  I am thankful that God wakes me up every morning, I am able provide a roof and a hot meal for my daughter every day, I am thankful for my family, friends, my wonderful support system and the ability to show Allannah what it means to be loved.

I hope that everyone's Thanksgiving was a special as mines.